The Past (2011-2020)


Where to start? Well, I already wrote an obligatory resolution post, but right now I feel like there’s so many things I still need to do in my life. I realized I have been procrastinating for 10 years and it has been a tough decade. I am immature, irresponsible and undisciplined for a 26-yr-old woman. How do I resolve this? I guess by making plans. I am never good at making plans, God knows how many time I tried keeping a planner and sticking with it but I would always fail. My current living situation prevents me from sticking to my plans because I always had to adjust depending on what my mom’s schedule is. But that is going to change this year because my mom wants to learn how to drive [I am also urging her to do so] so she doesn’t have to rely on me when she needs to do her errands. I can always commute, I kinda miss commuting coz I sleep when I commute and I can’t sleep when I’m driving now can I?

I have some ideas on what I want to do with my life in general. On top of that, I will make monthly plans which I will write here, as well as writing it down in my notebook and/or iPod [iPhone in 2 days]. My problem is following through. I have a habit of starting things but never finishing them. This year would be different; this year I would finish what I started. At the risk of sounding redundant, here is the plan.

[WARNING: Very long post ahead]

  1. Renew driver’s license. It’s so hard to live in this world without an ID. Since I am unemployed, the only IDs I have are my driver’s license and passport, both have expired in 2011. I have been irresponsible and neglected to renew it for reasons of laziness. I almost succeeded in renewing my license last November but unfortunately, drug testing wasn’t available and I gave up and went home.
  2. Organize things in the house. Since we just moved in here in Cavite, there are a lot of things that needs to be thrown out/given away and during that process, I want to organize our possessions. Last October I started small and organized the accessories materials though I may have to relocate them coz the drawer thing’s bottom gave in, one wheel broke off. I also made a new sewing kit with complete materials; and made a cross-stitch/crochet kit.
  3. Finish reading City of Bones. I read 3 ebooks last March, this should be easy. I started reading this ebook after I finished Mockingjay but it was kinda boring so I kept putting it off. I could choose to read a different book but I really want to find out what this series [The Mortal Instruments] is all about. Maybe listening to it would help, I have been listening to audiobooks while working around the house but I would often find myself not paying too much attention to what I’m hearing.
  4. Take Mia to VTRs. This plan is not just for her career but also with mine. Maybe I have a chance of becoming a commercial model, I just have to try.
  5. Finish my Pooh cross-stitch and start a new pattern. I am almost done with the Winnie the Pooh and Piglet pattern. Just one more sitting and it’s done and I’m still putting it off. I hate myself for doing that. [I’m looking for the progress pictures in Facebook and I can’t find it. FUCK YOU FACEBOOK!]
  6. Learn Spanish by listening to podcasts and checking into Livemocha at least an hour a day or once a week. I really want to learn a different language.
  7. Refresher course on HTML/CSS and programming shit. Learn HTML5. ‘Nuff said.
  8. Try to exercise at least 30 minutes a day. Simple exercises like sit-ups and push-ups should do it. I could also go walking in the morning but that would mean I have to wake up early. 8am will probably do.
  9. Fix my bike so I can go riding. See #8.
  10. Lessen internet usage. I want to limit myself to a number of hours per day but that would totally kill me so I will take it one day at a time.
  11. Sleep early, wake up early, do more things around the house.

I will not try to look for a job just yet. I tried and remembered how depressing it was to be under-qualified for job listings under my career path. I can’t get accepted to other jobs because they think I am over-qualified for the position. This has been my problem for the past year and yet I have done nothing to improve my knowledge.

A friend recently went back to school and it got me thinking, my mom has been suggesting that I go back to school since I am not looking for a job anyway. But then again I have no money to send myself to school and I don’t want to ask my mom to pay for it. There are a couple of universities near this location and I checked out their websites. One is offering short courses which I am really interested in taking, the other has multimedia arts course that is also under consideration. The former is in a father location than the latter but both would probably cost a lot to enroll in. To send myself back to college, I need to work, but to get a job, I need a refresher course. This is where the plan to self-study comes in. School is always an option especially now that there are a lot of new technologies available. As for a temporary job, I can always get in in a call center, but I do not like it.

I have tried and failed doing this project for about 5 times already. Do I dare try doing it again? Someone suggested that I start with 52 weeks project, it would be easier to accomplish. Maybe I will. Do I need a theme or just do whatever I feel like doing? If I do a weekly theme, it needs planning and preparation. I don’t know. I’m not sure. I’m undecided. But I want to do it. I can follow themes from Flickr groups. I miss Filipina Flickrites even though I suck at self-portraits.